take action? no way.

at the point of writing i have no particular point for this thread. i just wanna rant and get it out somewhere.

i feel like a ****ing failure. i've been almost in IM for about 6months and i've made very little online. loljk, actually id rather not be making huge money if i have to work everyday. im very lazy. i always am in a consistent look for a faster/better/easier way to do things. i consider myself a very entrepreneurial person. i dont think IM is for me, but building a web based business is. the problem is, i dont have a mentor or much to spend, and i dont have much funds to spend. im currently building a system for my vas to do research with, but im also really really impatient and want to get my system to work asap. its largely due to the aggressive goals ive set for myself to motivate myself to work. its not that i hate creating systems, in fact i absolutely love it. its the fact that i know i still have a hell lot of things to do after this, and im mildly confused, and uncertain whether this will work out or not. i have organisation tools that helping me so far, i spend a lot of time orgranising my notes and/or in self-improvement trying to make myself feel better/more confident to do stuff/make myself smarter/figure out why other people do xxx etc etc etc etc.

i know my success could be really near. in fact im pretty confident about that. its just that i cant get myself to do the f**king nuts and bolts of the work. its just not something i would do. im not fearful of doing it. its just something i absolutely ****ing dread doing. yet i dont wanna compromise quality of work which is value for customer. its just work that i absolutely hate to do. (eg creating presentations for my screencast videos, etc) the thing is, i dont have much funds nor do i have the patience to go through a huge long process of pitching people with money to invest in my business. i just want it quick and fast, no bs hassles delaying my progress. i know i might sound like a f**king lazy bum waiting for that push button solution..well probably i am that way. dont tell me i wont succeed with that mentality, because i will.

i have 3 books sitting around waiting for me to read. and i REALLY want to read em just for a temporary escape. i really love learning and innovation and **** like that. i really love concepts and creating stuff. i love inventing stuff and probably coaching people. maybe teaching or speaking too. (i haven't got comfortable speaking infront of a crowd ...yet)

thing is, I DO NOT WANT TO BE THE ONE ACTUALLY CREATING THE STUFF. dont get me wrong, i really like talking or discussing about entrepreneurship or work on new ideas. i might even love writing about them. but i absolutely hate the actual execution part of the idea. its so ****ing boring. i know this will make no sense to many. im confused too.

i love learning about tactics, i hate implementing. i love creating new ideas and innovation and things like that but i hate going out and actually doing the work. its a freakin job for me. its like im really confident i can be the be the best strategist and am open to keep learning about new strategies / creating new ones myself (not trying to brag, just illustrating) but i wont go down to fight the war. nor do i have the funds to buy many soldiers or expert soldiers who can execute my strategy properly.

tl;dr i havent made much on the internetz, i think i have an entrepreneurial spirit but i have too little funds. im working on some stuff but getting very stressed out. therefore this rant.